Decisions

If I look back on my life, the biggest decisions were not made by thinking, worrying, obsessing, wondering, and trying to figure it out on my own.

In times of big decision, it all became crystal clear when I quieted my mind and felt loving guidance.

You don’t have to DO anything! We were conditioned at a young age to be, do, go, meet, see. It was almost unnatural to just sit and be and do nothing. But in times of change, that is sometimes what we most need.

I feel most empowered when I turn my mind off and affirm that everything is working out for my highest and greatest good. I can’t see the big picture but I truly believe that a greater part of me can.

What works for me is affirming/feeling what I want to create and allowing the universe to unfold naturally. If I don’t know what I want, then I affirm that “I have clarity.” I do this when I am worried or stressed about something. I stop the chatter and turn it over to Spirit, affirming that it works out for the greater good of all. Sure, we call that faith. But if you struggle with that, know that energy is energy and where your attention goes, your life flows. So focus that the solution is here and stop the fear-based chatter.

Allow things to flow naturally. Smell the flowers or walk through the snow, look up at the sky and watch the hawks do their dive. Life is glorious. It all works out.

#peforthesoul #stopthechatter #decisions

Feeling unworthy

Many of us spend a lifetime feeling unworthy. We may feel we have come far in our life, worked through many difficulties, succeeded in much and are actively trying to create the life we deserve…and then we dig a little more and realize we have much more to do. Maybe there are still feelings of shame, guilt, fear. Maybe they creep up on us suddenly and we realize that fear is the most comfortable feeling we know! It is so familiar, like an old worn out blanket.

If struggles continue to happen even when you are actively trying to manifest what you want, one reason might be that deep down you feel that you don’t deserve it.

I was given great advice once from two different sources and one day it clicked.

Find an old picture of you when you were totally happy, innocent and filled with love. Look for a picture that reminds you of the love and sweetness and joy that you are. Find a picture of you that makes you smile when you see it. I truly believe that our true essence is love but it can get buried along the way in the hard task of navigating through this thing called life. So once you have your picture, focus on it regularly…focus on the light that you are. As you focus on this light, it will grow and expand expelling that darkness.

This exercise is so healing and a reminder of our worth . . . just because. We will slip, we will fall, but we will better accept and appreciate ourselves and recognize our worth. When we feel worthy, the sky is the limit.

You are worthy.

Sit with the discomfort

Ever since I can remember, I have tried to run from pain and discomfort, whether emotional, mental or physical. I, instead, would obsess, wonder, escape, run away, ask why, or inquire how long it would last. I wanted to feel good and would do whatever it took, pay tons of money, to make myself feel better. I HAD to feel better, my life depended on it, I would say!

One day, I decided to sit with the discomfort and go into the pain. Below are some things I learned along the way:

Many times our body stores our emotional pain that eventually can come out in disease or sickness. So I like to get into a room where I know I won’t be disrupted and I tune into my body. I start at my head, putting all of my focus on my head, and I see and feel what comes up. When I feel empty emotionally, I move on to the next body part and start the process again. I slowly make my way down my whole body. In doing this, it has allowed me to freely release the stored pain so I can move on.

In addition, I realized that when I made a decision to sit with my discomfort, my pain, and breathe through it, I discovered it wasn’t unbearable. I could totally handle it!! Doing deep breathing to calm myself down, I discovered it was my RESISTANCE to it that made it unbearable.

I don’t thank my body enough! I put it through a lot without every really appreciating ALL of its wonder and beauty. So I will say right now, I am so grateful for my body and its strength, endurance and love for me. It has taken on all of my pain so I could do what I do.

I would like to practice slowing down, listening more and being more gentle and present. Today I am breathing.

Flip it!

If you have ever taught or observed a teacher in action, you will find that in most moments the instructor is reminding students to pay attention, sit in their seat, stop talking, try harder, do better. Notice, where is the focus? It is very natural to ignore all of the many things going right and put your attention on the one thing going wrong. We do it to ourselves and each other all of the time! Our society is constantly focused on all of the negative situations occurring. I mean just watch a news program. What do you hear? Do you feel better about things or more depressed.

When a teacher has awareness and makes a choice to notice and voice out loud all of the positive occurrences going on, and see students in a positive way, students thrive and you end up seeing even more positive situations.

You can take this same principle and apply it to our problems, concerns, relationships, jobs, everything in our life. When I have a problem and I sit there thinking about it, focusing on it, worrying about it, nothing changes except I feel worse and discouraged. When I remember, and that is the crucial element here, to focus my attention on a solution, it arrives at the right time.

For instance, you might have an idea or interest in something and you have no idea how to make it happen. What you can do is focus on your idea, the feeling it produces, and trust that a solution comes. Again, I am not trying to figure it out. Instead, I am focusing on what I want and affirming that the solution comes at the right time.

There are SO many things going right in our life. Focus on that. Feel it. And when things come up, flip it. Affirm there is a solution, know it, feel it and let go.

That’s where magic happens.

One day you may meet a stranger or you see an old friend who points you in the right direction and in that moment, you get it. You don’t need to have it all figured out. But it is your right to dream, to do what you love, to celebrate your life and be happy! So flip it. Where is your focus?

Today I was reminded of the beauty that continues to happen with our awareness or not. So set your intent and trust the universe to fill in the details … pay attention to the nudges and watch the synchronicity of your life.

#peforthesoul #inspiration #shamanicpassagesinstitute

In memory of Sweeper 2005-2018

She was lost, I remind myself. I watched her decline over the year and every time I thought this might be it, after a bad week, she bounced back and appeared to be herself.

Kind of.

She still walked into walls, got stuck in odd places, didn’t know if I was home or not, twitched, paced, walked in circles but she didn’t appear to be suffering or hurting. I remember one time, there were so few lately, I walked onto the porch and she looked up at me, right at me. There you are! I beamed. She beamed!

Those moments were rare and worth it. I was told it’s her brain. I often wondered…her quality of life…sleeping all day, incontinence, but she ate, kind of. Sure, I felt I had to bring the bowl to her mouth at times or help her locate her water…but she didn’t appear to be suffering. At times I tried to walk her, even though it was about two houses down before we returned. I brought her up to me and snuggled (as she always loved before) and tried to guide her but mostly she wanted down, to wander, stare, walk in circles, pace, until she made it to her bed.

I pushed all feelings aside for a year, found myself snapping at others, irritable, and it weighed on me. Is she in her private hell? I tried to read what she wanted or needed in each moment but she appeared lost.

I took a day off and the night before, she started to cry. She stood there in her bed, not wanting to lie down, look at how skinny she is. You’re not happy. I picked her up and rocked and snuggled with her until she fell asleep.

As usual, in the middle of the night, I woke up to her crying. I helped get her settled and the next day, my day off, she just started crying while standing in her bed. I tried to rock her, no good, she kept crying, whining.

I made the call.

I wrapped her up and rocked her until she fell asleep. She stopped crying.

Dearest Sweeper, I have missed you for a year. My jogging partner, my therapy dog, my ‘go everywhere we go’ girl, my protector, my friend, my excited and happy and friendly and jumping up and down, sweet and accepting mate. I have so missed you. It hits me, the painful year, where I pushed all my feelings aside a lot, hits me hard and I can’t stop crying. I miss you so much.

The guilt that comes with saying goodbye looks at me squarely in the face, and so I write. Sweeper, have you been found? #pet #animalcompanion

Thanksgiving thoughts

 

As I take time off for Thanksgiving break, I am reminded of all I am grateful for. I know some of you are struggling, sick, depressed, hurting in some way. For that reason, the Holidays can be a challenging and sad time for some. Please take comfort in knowing, this too shall pass. In my most painful moments in my life, when I was in it, it felt like it would last forever. There appeared no end in sight. It was scary and overwhelming.

I can’t know exactly how You feel.

I can’t.

I can only share that I have lived through my own terror – surprised that I made it. During my most challenging times, I reached out and asked for help. I allowed myself to feel and grieve. When ready, I allowed myself the pleasure of distraction, if only for a second, and turned away from the dread. I listened to myself. I looked into the mirror and gave a hug and declared “I love you.” When I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, I focused on all that I was thankful for…and one day, I realized I didn’t need to try anymore. It passed … and this continues to be the case.

No matter where you are at, I send you so much love during this time of Thanksgiving.

#inspiration #peforthesoul #shamanicpassagesinstitute