Spring back

My flowers were not doing very well for years. They had stopped blooming. I was unsure what happened and didn’t know what they needed. Over the years, I would water them, talk to them and wonder. I thought that possibly they were at the end of their journey, living a long and beautiful life.

Until today.

I went outside and saw this beauty and celebrated its vibrancy.

Have you ever felt like that? You are going along on your journey, feeling excitement and purpose. And then all of a sudden, bam! Whether it’s an illness, depression, a loss, a change, you wonder . . . what’s the point?

Life happens but this too shall pass. Magic does return. Sometimes we go to sleep for a little while but it never lasts. The beauty inside cannot be extinguished. It may grow dim but it returns brightly when ready.

We cannot see the big picture. Sometimes we may get a glimpse of it and other times we do not. Regardless, in trying times, allow yourself all the time you need. Be gentle and trust your process. When you are ready, your light will shine bright and the way will become clear. Reach out, ask for help and trust the inner messages you receive and most of all, don’t give up. But if you do, then give up trying to do things your way. Surrender to the greater you.

I recently did that myself, and my days became brighter and my closed-off heart started to open.

Spring is here. This is the time for many of us to awaken and spring back to life.

Baby steps

I will never forget feeling the call to move very far away. I was in my twenties at the time and for as long as I could remember, I struggled with finding my place in the world. I remember thinking that moving to this city would open a whole new world for me. I wanted a very diverse experience and this city had everything I wanted so I heeded the call.

I decided to travel there first and get my bearings, considering employment and travel. However, a couple of days after I arrived, I was stunned to discover that I panicked. All of a sudden I was overwhelmed with depression and fear. Everything was so different, a whole new world to discover, and I froze. The reality of it left me paralyzed and I started to beat myself up, disgusted by my weakness.

Thankfully, I called a friend who encouraged me to accept exactly how I felt and not make it wrong. We are often hard on ourselves, pushing, pushing to be stronger, better. I will always be thankful and remember her fondly for her kindness and wisdom. Marcia allowed me to be where I was at emotionally and her guidance changed the course of my life.

She suggested taking a baby step and had a great idea! A couple of months later, I moved to a city, similar to the one I visited but within my current state, and I went my way.

I discovered that moving to that big city across the country would not have been right for me at that time. There were unexpected changes months later that confirmed I made the right decision and I was forever grateful!

Its ok to be afraid. We don’t have to do anything. But if the nudge is strong, sometimes a baby step, or a more simple plan is all we need.

Accept and trust your inner messages.

Go easy.