Baby steps

I will never forget feeling the call to move very far away. I was in my twenties at the time and for as long as I could remember, I struggled with finding my place in the world. I remember thinking that moving to this city would open a whole new world for me. I wanted a very diverse experience and this city had everything I wanted so I heeded the call.

I decided to travel there first and get my bearings, considering employment and travel. However, a couple of days after I arrived, I was stunned to discover that I panicked. All of a sudden I was overwhelmed with depression and fear. Everything was so different, a whole new world to discover, and I froze. The reality of it left me paralyzed and I started to beat myself up, disgusted by my weakness.

Thankfully, I called a friend who encouraged me to accept exactly how I felt and not make it wrong. We are often hard on ourselves, pushing, pushing to be stronger, better. I will always be thankful and remember her fondly for her kindness and wisdom. Marcia allowed me to be where I was at emotionally and her guidance changed the course of my life.

She suggested taking a baby step and had a great idea! A couple of months later, I moved to a city, similar to the one I visited but within my current state, and I went my way.

I discovered that moving to that big city across the country would not have been right for me at that time. There were unexpected changes months later that confirmed I made the right decision and I was forever grateful!

Its ok to be afraid. We don’t have to do anything. But if the nudge is strong, sometimes a baby step, or a more simple plan is all we need.

Accept and trust your inner messages.

Go easy.

#acceptance

Decisions

If I look back on my life, the biggest decisions were not made by thinking, worrying, obsessing, wondering, and trying to figure it out on my own.

In times of big decision, it all became crystal clear when I quieted my mind and felt loving guidance.

You don’t have to DO anything! We were conditioned at a young age to be, do, go, meet, see. It was almost unnatural to just sit and be and do nothing. But in times of change, that is sometimes what we most need.

I feel most empowered when I turn my mind off and affirm that everything is working out for my highest and greatest good. I can’t see the big picture but I truly believe that a greater part of me can.

What works for me is affirming/feeling what I want to create and allowing the universe to unfold naturally. If I don’t know what I want, then I affirm that “I have clarity.” I do this when I am worried or stressed about something. I stop the chatter and turn it over to Spirit, affirming that it works out for the greater good of all. Sure, we call that faith. But if you struggle with that, know that energy is energy and where your attention goes, your life flows. So focus that the solution is here and stop the fear-based chatter.

Allow things to flow naturally. Smell the flowers or walk through the snow, look up at the sky and watch the hawks do their dive. Life is glorious. It all works out.

#peforthesoul #stopthechatter #decisions

Feeling unworthy

Many of us spend a lifetime feeling unworthy. We may feel we have come far in our life, worked through many difficulties, succeeded in much and are actively trying to create the life we deserve…and then we dig a little more and realize we have much more to do. Maybe there are still feelings of shame, guilt, fear. Maybe they creep up on us suddenly and we realize that fear is the most comfortable feeling we know! It is so familiar, like an old worn out blanket.

If struggles continue to happen even when you are actively trying to manifest what you want, one reason might be that deep down you feel that you don’t deserve it.

I was given great advice once from two different sources and one day it clicked.

Find an old picture of you when you were totally happy, innocent and filled with love. Look for a picture that reminds you of the love and sweetness and joy that you are. Find a picture of you that makes you smile when you see it. I truly believe that our true essence is love but it can get buried along the way in the hard task of navigating through this thing called life. So once you have your picture, focus on it regularly…focus on the light that you are. As you focus on this light, it will grow and expand expelling that darkness.

This exercise is so healing and a reminder of our worth . . . just because. We will slip, we will fall, but we will better accept and appreciate ourselves and recognize our worth. When we feel worthy, the sky is the limit.

You are worthy.

Sit with the discomfort

Ever since I can remember, I have tried to run from pain and discomfort, whether emotional, mental or physical. I, instead, would obsess, wonder, escape, run away, ask why, or inquire how long it would last. I wanted to feel good and would do whatever it took, pay tons of money, to make myself feel better. I HAD to feel better, my life depended on it, I would say!

One day, I decided to sit with the discomfort and go into the pain. Below are some things I learned along the way:

Many times our body stores our emotional pain that eventually can come out in disease or sickness. So I like to get into a room where I know I won’t be disrupted and I tune into my body. I start at my head, putting all of my focus on my head, and I see and feel what comes up. When I feel empty emotionally, I move on to the next body part and start the process again. I slowly make my way down my whole body. In doing this, it has allowed me to freely release the stored pain so I can move on.

In addition, I realized that when I made a decision to sit with my discomfort, my pain, and breathe through it, I discovered it wasn’t unbearable. I could totally handle it!! Doing deep breathing to calm myself down, I discovered it was my RESISTANCE to it that made it unbearable.

I don’t thank my body enough! I put it through a lot without every really appreciating ALL of its wonder and beauty. So I will say right now, I am so grateful for my body and its strength, endurance and love for me. It has taken on all of my pain so I could do what I do.

I would like to practice slowing down, listening more and being more gentle and present. Today I am breathing.

REWIND, Create a New Story

Many of us have an experience. And in that experience, we determine if we want to experience it again. We make a statement about it and we create a story that determines our path ever after.

Let me give you a personal example. I once tried a yoga class. It was so hard and rigorous that my legs and arms were shaking as I left the class. At the time, I was experiencing anxiety in my life. This shaking created more anxiety for me, thinking something must be wrong with me. So the story I created was that I hate yoga classes and they are not for me. If I did yoga, it was at my own at home and it was a routine that worked for me.

The end.

Or so I thought.

There came a time in my life when I wanted to change my life. I wanted to create more joy, adventure and fun. So I imagined my new life on a regular basis, the one I wanted to create, and I set my intent. One day I was about to tell this yoga instructor that she could take me off her mailing list, that yoga classes are not for me. And I paused. I asked myself, “Why not?” Needless to say, I went to her class and loved it so much, I now cannot imagine not going to her yoga class. This happened because I was open to change. I was open to creating a new story.

Our story, the one we continue to remind our self of, dictates our behavior which in turn creates our experiences. What if you decided to change your story? What If you decided to create a new one? What If? I dare you.
#manifest #create